I noticed that I have issues with overcoming too many ideas. I want to do everything, and I feel a constant pressure about knowing everything because of my age. For some reason I get nervous about people going further than me at a younger age. When I see someone who's younger than me doing way better in drawing I usually curl up and whimper about it. Some days I want to become the master of light and colors , other days it's about pespective or semi-realism. I have to learn everything otherwise I won't be happy with myself.
That's what I think at least, but I notice that I am way better off with making characters on a white background than a semi realistic looking scenery with loads of details. I see artists like Nico Marlet and wondering if he did very detailed work like the ones I ahve in mind before he started making characters.
His work have been inspiring me alot lately and I want to focus more on characters than everything else.
But as a freelance illustrator I have to know more than how to draw characters, I need backgrounds for the pictures I'm drawing. I am not creative enough to find my own method, because I don't like experimenting unless I know it's taking me somewhere.
I don't know whether it's because of my state of health (some ADD issues that stops me from having a workflow) and other things. I am going to take online courses during 2015-2016 after school is finished, hoping I can evolve my knowledge of art, light, color and perspective so I'll feel more satisfied and confident with my own art.
I'm going to "fight" these thoughts untill then, just doodling and studying various things from real life and taking inspiration from my surroundings hoping it will broaden my mind a little. I am very unpatient without guidance so still life painting is quite difficult for me. I guess it's back to drawing animals and pokemon again to keep myself going!
A nodlecart from Pandaria! Time to draw something new...
